Sweet Bliss

Tossing and turning in a sea of blankets,
my mind once again on autopilot.
It's 3 am and yet, though I'm exhausted,
my brain barrels on at breakneck speed.
Thinking of lost love and life after death;
wondering the meaning of life, besides of course 42.
Wishing there was a magical spell to switch off my head so I can rest.
When an epiphany occurs!
Might music calm the spirits within?
Soon "The Sound of Silence" is playing softly in my ears.
I can feel my mind start to fade and my troubles melt.
As my eyelids slowly droop, my conscious dissolves into sweet blissful nothing.
Ah, sleep at last!

Under the Bridge

This is a photo I took recently, just off WA-529 near Marysville.




You can see more of my photographic work here.

For Shawn (RIP)

I drew this back in February and completely forgot about posting it here until just now. It's based on a drawing my friend Shawn did back in high school. Sadly, Shawn committed suicide shortly after I left Indiana.

Holding on Hope

*Disclaimer: The lyrics of the first two verses do not reflect my current feelings. They are inspired by past events and what I felt then.



It's over.

I finally get it, it all makes such perfect sense now.

Still love her,

But I should forget it, and let it all go somehow.

I cry out in pain and despair,

But it's quiet 'cause no one's there...



No more holding on hope,

I let go of this rope,

'cause I know that this is the end.

As I fall to the abyss,

I look back and reminisce,

to the time when we still were just friends.

But in the end, I never could make amends...



She hates me.

If anyone asks, just tell them the facts so they know.

I screwed up,

and left her alone so that I could go home, why'd I go?

Well I've shed so many tears,

and it seems that only God hears...



(repeat chorus)



But suicide isn't the answer, or the cure for insanity's cancer...



So I'm holding on hope,

Got a grip on my rope,

'cause I know that it's not the end.

I will climb 'til I'm free

Of the pain haunting me,

and the heartbreak I felt in my chest.

Get some rest, and I'm finally on the mend.



I found her.

She's just right for me, it seems meant to be. It all makes such perfect sense now... :)

Dear Sanity (original song)

Dear Sanity,
I'm writing you this letter just to tell you how I've been
This last season of heartbreak, it has all but done me in
She told me that she loved me then she said she had to go,
And whether she'll come back to me, I guess only God knows.

Dear Sanity,
It's cold and lonely in this room with padding on the walls,
Am I the only one who hears her whisper in the halls?
No one else can see the face that's etched upon my mind,
And Solitaire with 51 can't help me pass the time...

Dear Sanity,
I really miss the outside world and all its simple thrills,
And I'm so sick of taking all these stupid mental pills
The voices in my head won't shut up when I need to sleep
But any time I feel alone, they never make a peep!

Dear Sanity,
What I wouldn't give to just take my straitjacket off
The canvas is so itchy, why can't it be Snuggle soft?
And they just shoot me up with drugs when I try to complain,
It's no wonder I'm in here, 'cause I'm truly insane.

Dear Sanity,
Someday soon I hope we can get back in touch again
'cause I don't want to stay at the asylum I've been in
I hope this letter reaches you, I know it's been a while
Since I talked like a normal guy and made you laugh and smile...
...oh wait, that's Ariel I'm thinking of, whatever, never mind.
But I guess that it's excusable since I have lost my mind.

Signed, The Purple Sprite... Or was it Sam Phillips? I can't remember.... :)

I Woke Up this Morning

I woke up this morning with a song upon my heart.

I dreamed you said you loved me and that we would never part.

But then I saw that you weren't there and started feeling bad,

Look back at all the time we shared and all the love we had...

I woke up this morning feeling good but now it's gone.

And now there's tears on my cheeks as I'm singin' you this song;

I wish that you'd come back and we could start over again,

'cause only you can save me from this slump that I've been in...

I woke up this morning to the sound of pouring rain,

pick up the phone to call you but I know it's all in vain.

I never got your number and you said I couldn't call

Maybe I'd be better if we hadn't met at all...

I woke up this morning and I saw you left a note

I started crying tears of joy as I read what you wrote

You said I miss you baby and I'm sorry I hurt you

You know I made a promise that I would always be true....

I woke up this morning with my girl at my bedside

We talked and laughed and reminisced and then we hugged and cried

And all the time she'd been away she always thought of me

Now I know she loves me so I guess it's meant to be...

I woke up this morning with a song upon my heart...

Love Songs to No One

We once were so close

it seemed meant to be

and I thought that nothing could take you from me

Then I moved away

and I still rue the day

the day that I told you that I had to leave

Now you found someone else,I'm here by myself

Wishing you'd come back again

though you broke my heart

and tore me apart

I hope that we can still be friends.



I'm here on my own writing love songs to no one

and it feels so wrong when you're all alone

I want you to know I miss you and it's no fun

writing love songs to no one

writing love songs to no one...



Can't sleep at night

I still dream of you

and it sucks that there's nothing that I can do

If time heals all wounds I hope I heal soon

'cause it would be nice just to get over you

the tears in my eyes

are hard to disguise

Even in Seattle rain

I think I'll let go

let my feelings show

'cause I'm sick of hiding the pain.